Anonymous TTC after m/c Wish

I found out I was pregnant on the 27th december with 3 very positive tests and yesterday the pregnancy test that I took in the doctors was very faint.Today I got my period,so I had a chemical pregnancy.I hope I concieve and this never happens again.I bonded with it stright away and right now I dont know what to do.If I try again then I WISH that i never feel this again.