Anonymous Losing Weight Wish

I wish I had the will power to lose the weight I have gained since hubby and I got married 5 1/2 years ago. I feel fat, ugly and had a dream last night I found a moving picture in his wallet of him an a beautiful blonde skinny girl doing it at his work place. I asked him why and he looked at me with this evil grin..."because she is blonde and pretty." I woke up crying and I want to change my appearance. I will have a hard time facing him today. I feel so ugly.