Ailiwen's TTC after m/c Wish

I had a miscarriage at 17 (I'm 22), and ever since I've felt denied my chance at motherhood. While I'm thankful I didn't have a child so young, now I feel is the time. I've been with my fiancée for a month shy of two years now (November 15th is 2 years), and we recently decided about 2-3 months ago it was time. My wish is that I will have a beautiful, healthy baby girl (he has a boy). I still feel like I lost a part of me, though, and all I want is to give the love of my life a little girl...