We've now come to terms with the fact that if it's meant to be it will just happen, but have thrown ourselves into major projects in the meantime so we're not on hold, and can contribute to the world without being so wrapped up in one goal that might never happen. I feel like crying many times a month; I work in a shop and I see so many pregnant women and new mums, and having a child with my partner feels like the only thing that would fit right. It makes no logical sense as I have so many other things I've been working on and want to achieve, but this want comes from another place entirely.

I think the more spiritual fertility experts are right when they say if you have any doubts or ambivalence then it can hold you back. I may feel like it's all I want in my heart, but my head's maybe not there yet. I hope I can get there soon.